When God Finally Feels Real

Ben Fuller’s Story of Coming Home

Your story carries weight. Jesus keeps using real stories to reach real people, and Ben Fuller said something that helps you breathe again when you wonder if yours still matters.

Ben started with a kind of faith many people recognize. God felt real enough to believe in, and far enough to keep at a distance.

“I didn’t not believe in God,” he said. “I always have believed in God, but I was like, ‘Oh, when you get old, you get right with God, so that way you can go to heaven.’”

That’s a familiar approach: faith as a future plan. It places relationship with God on the horizon. Then Ben described the moment the gospel became personal: “Wait a minute, I can start right now. It can start right now.”

Your Story Still Matters

Ben shared that this has been a real season of wrestling for him—even as someone who stands on stage.

“This season of life that I’ve been in, I’ve been wrestling a lot with God to go on stage,” he said. “The biggest attack on my life recently has been: ‘Don’t tell your story anymore. People already know it. They’ve already heard it.’”

He kept naming the details people often feel disqualify them. “They already know that you were an addict for 14 years. They already know that you’ve struggled with suicide attempts. They already know all those things.”

Then he called out the spiritual pressure behind it. “And um what a lie that is.”

Ben’s words speak to the moment when shame tries to silence you.

Jesus Makes a Way for You to Come Home

A little later, Ben offered a sentence that feels like Jesus speaking tenderness over the people who’ve felt like the outlier, the runaway, the one who never quite fit.

“Well, the good news is he’ll never leave you because Jesus loves you black sheep.”

“And I’m one of them.” Ben is proof that Jesus welcomes you close.

“I broke through a lot of fences. I ran away a lot of times. And somehow… somehow he still loves me and he made a way for me to come home.” Ben added, “because his arms have always been open wide.”

That word home matters. Home means you’re wanted. Home means Jesus meets you with grace and a new start. It’s the kind of welcome Jesus loves to give.

Then Ben circled back to what the enemy had been whispering in his ear—and he answered it with truth.

“It’s been hard to squash that lie…because the voice of the enemy has been so loud in my ears of saying that my life doesn’t matter, that I don’t matter, that my story doesn’t matter.”

Ben’s said, “And that’s not true because by the blood of the lamb and the word of our testimony, we overcome.”

We see exactly what he’s saying in Revelation 12:11: “And they overcame him by the blood of the Lamb and by the word of their testimony…” (NKJV).

Ben continued: “I’m thankful to remind myself today that my story matters, that your story matters because Jesus saved my life and uh it’s only by his blood.”

Then he added, “From a 6’3 tattooed man that took 32 years to hear the gospel of Jesus Christ… that it’s never too late, and that you’re never too far gone. And that he loves you.”

Forgiveness that Changes Everything

As he kept talking, you could hear the weight of forgiveness settling in — the kind that reaches into your past and gives you a future.

“I was just thinking about all the people that… I’ve hurt along the way, all the awful things I’ve said and done…”

“And the forgiveness in Christ… the forgiveness that… he has… that he went to the cross and died for me…”

Ben’s awe came through as he described what changed when he realized who Jesus is. “That’s why I ran so hard to Jesus because once I realized who he is and what he’d done for me, like are you kidding?”

“I’ve got nothing else and nobody else has ever done that stuff for me before. No one else has ever died for me.” Then he said it as simply as a man telling the truth. “No one else has ever rose again for me so that I might have life.”

Ben closed with an invitation that sounds like a friend who’s been there. “You’ve tried everything… So why not try Jesus?”

“I did.”

“And I’m certainly not perfect, but I’m sober, and I’m alive today. And I’m thankful.” Ben asked it the way only someone who’s been there can ask it: “How many other things are you going to try before you just ask Jesus?”

He even gave the next step, “Romans 10:9 says, believe in your heart and confess with your mouth that Jesus Christ is Lord and that God raised him from the dead. And if you believe that, you’ll be saved.”

If you’re ready to respond, you can start with a prayer as simple as this: “Jesus, I’m coming home. Thank you for loving me and making a way. Forgive me, heal what’s been broken, and lead me one day at a time. Amen.”

If you’re in immediate danger or thinking about harming yourself, call or text 988 in the U.S. (Suicide & Crisis Lifeline), or contact your local emergency number right now.

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